(Originally posted in July 2015)

Let the emotions bubble up and watch.
Discover the strength it takes to do nothing at all.
Sit and observe.
Like waves, they say.
Like clouds.

Say, thank you, Fear, I feel you.
You paralyse me sometimes, but I am going to keep moving now.
Say, thank you, Guilt, I hear you.
I know you have a lot to say, but I am not going to listen this time.
Say, thank you, Urgency, I see you.
You push me to act sometimes, but I am going to stay still for once.
Say, thank you, Sadness, I know you well.
I let you overcome me sometimes.

But, anger, I didn’t see you coming.
You didn’t come from anywhere.
You weren’t directed at anything or anyone.
How do I say thank you to such rawness?
How do I say thank you to such ugliness?
How do I sit and do nothing when my heart hardens?
How do I feel you?
How do I let you out?

I didn’t know.
So I screamed into empty space.
I yelled in places where no one could hear me.
I let it pour out of me in sounds and drops.

And I sat.
In the silence.